Diving in…
We depend very much on taste in our spiritual life, we’re all looking for that because without it, the years begin to count and it becomes difficult to maintain our spiritual purity and status etc. In the beginning, okay, it’s easy because one is conquering, one is going forward, one is feeling that he’s advancing with huge jumps forward to the spiritual world and then with time it’s, ‘My God! Is it a long way? Will we ever get there? Probably not! At least not this life time!’…kind of mood tends to come. And at that state, we are really beginning to appreciate more that we are dependent on so many things. We begin to see that we are not so strong in our Krsna consciousness and with time we begin to see that we depend on many, many factors for our support: we begin to value the devotees more because we realize these are the few people that are also into Krsna consciousness: ‘They may be a little different than I am but anyway, let’s just accept them.’ In the beginning one might think, ‘well, mmm…this one’s strange, that one-no…’ But with time one becomes more appreciative for vaisnava relationships, one becomes more careful. I also, in the beginning I used to think, well…when there was a difference of opinion, I thought, well if I’m right then I’m right and then the other person has to accept. Now I may be wrong, so let me check it with other people. And if other vaisnava’s say I’m right, well if they confirm it, then I must be right. It seems right to me, others confirm it’s right, then it must be right. So in that way then, I’m right and it was just a confrontation. But nowadays I’m more careful of that because I notice that with all these confrontations, some people didn’t like me. Some people still don’t like me because of the confrontations of so many years ago! Anyway, if there’s anybody here- sorry for that! Trying to change now! What to do! We are trying to appreciate every vaisnava for whatever contribution that vaisnava is making because we know we’re depending on the vaisnava’s.
So sometimes we take it that our activities of sadhana are like that- to kind of pump up our fading enthusiasm, our fading determination and we have to pump again and again or we’re going to bloop! But that’s on the lower end really. I’m looking here more at the other side of the hearing and chanting: that we just get into the mood of tasting very nice things in Krsna consciousness, one after another, just keep on taking the sweets and well, a salty in between as well- it doesn’t matter. But just go on and on and on as much as we can, and this is actually the process. So therefore, the process of breaking through from struggling in spiritual life to being inspired in spiritual life, is not a matter of just struggling and struggling and waiting for the day that we’ll wake up in an ecstatic mood. Rather, it must come to the point where we actively begin to taste the nectar that all the acaryas are tasting and that all the great devotees are always tasting. Whether we have so much taste for it or not- who cares! Just taste it! Let us just embrace it and go for it! And well, even if there’s not so much taste, little taste may come.
(HH Kadamba Kanana Swami Maharaja, Vrndavana)
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